Fiendish...

THIS week, so far, has been absolutely fiendish. i suppose monday was ok, since i left school after recess to ggo for piano exam. nvm how that went though. :P anw. yesterday was a really hectic day. firstly i got back my chem test, on structure of matter, and guess what i got. 5. out of 15. u noe i was in hysterics. i ttly couldnt believe that i scored THAT low. it was appalling. disgraceful. argh. i was so irate, it was unbelievable. anw. then of cos, after an ss lesson during which i nearly fell asleep, there was MCS, which was another catastrophe, since some gits got it into their minds they can come and go as they want, what with the performance being next week. god. finished at about 5, then got home, and started on the colossal pile of homework. then, got to work on the tedious NCC website and blog. sigh. it was like, 8.40pm when i finished yest. just enough time for dinner, then watched ugly betty, then dropped straight off to sleep. i just couldnt tahan. i was out by 10.30. so yeah.

Today was...ok...I suppose. lit, i argued with the teacher a bit. so much fun contradicting a teacher and showing off. lol. XD eng, had some article fallacies thingy. at least no essay tmr!! then phy, ok la, went thru ex 6, then maths, struggled a bit cos i missed the lesson on monday, right. but it got ok after a while. then after recess, maths (again), we had this stupid test, the whole period, i barely finished. it'll be another miracle if i pass that test. i hate radians. then after that had bio. sigh. cldnt understand anything tho. yes, u ppl know why. anyway, then chem, we had another test, this time from tys. sigh. ok la. whole period test again. so quite a slack day. then after school, helped my friend settle his essay submission, we're nominating our eng teacher for inspiring teacher of english award. yeah, then went home. luckily, i finished the trigonometry (3) in school, so effectively no hw! yay! so i started cooking carrot cake. (chai tow kway) yeah, its still steaming now, i hope i got it right. lol. if it screws up again, i dunno wat to say la.

You know, getting back that chem test was a real eye-opener for me. i mean, having never scored that low before, im not used to such substandard work, and what surprised and shocked me most was that, hey, thats my work. and my work is now worth 5/15 marks. when you realise that, then u realise how much the value of failure is. i mean, yeah, i dun think i wld ever want to fail anything, esp not an examinable subject. but still, the cliched saying that yes, failure is the mother of success, doesnt really appeal to me, at all, actually. i mean, i think that too fail is too fail. period. no euphemisms, just you and your failure, which is a slap in the face for you and a kick in the ass, knocking u off your high horse. sure, you puritans (yes, puritans) may think that oh, failure is a part of life, and u havent lived if u havent failed etc etc, yeah ok. but like i said, in the end, all that remains, is that YOU FAILED. simple as that. nothing fancy, nothing deep. think about it.