Term 2...

SO the horror has begun. sigh. i was right. it is gonna be a taxing term. mid years are in week 7, with mother tongue in week 5. timetable was given out today. haiz. the BH pidato qualifiers are next saturday. SYF is next tuesday (SHRIEK). sigh. im just taking it one step at a time. i mean, thats like the best way.

Anyway, i kinda regret going for the pidato at TPJC today. i mean, i missed chem and maths. chem we went thru the tests we just had. and maths she started on differentiation of trigonometric functions which, sadly, is highly complex. as a result, i am utterly deceased. die lor. stupid trigo. i hate amaths trigo. i think ive expressed that particular sentiment in previous posts on this blog before. haha. im just saying. and i also missed PSE, cause today was friday's timetable. i mean, its not that i didnt want to go for the pidato, but i missed out a LOT today. apparently there was some talk in the PAC, and i dun even know for wat. sigh. i rly gave up a lot for that pidato. and i dun think it was quite worth it. i dunno. im confused.

Seriously, im just so confused at this stage of my life. those of you who know why, yeah, thats why. i mean, its something so new and ive never had something like this happening before. its so annoying, when i dun hv all the answers. i really, really hate being in the dark, and having to second-guess so many things. to be unsure of so many things. ive never been this unsure in my life. as to where to go from now, and what am i supposed to do. i seem to be praying for guidance which never seems to come. so help me, god.

I cant wait for Friday. its gonna be another slack day. its founder's day. what a bore. anyway, were expected to finish by 1130. so yeah. then im headed home. thers training tmr, but i think it'll be ok. hopefully. i dunno. im never sure of anything these days...

"many nights we pray, with no proof anyone could hear..."